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This is the view from my sleeping position.....trouble is I'm not sleeping. I hate that clock and its mocking neon digits. At 0226 I turn it round. It gets to the point where I don't want to know the bloody time. Maddie waking at approx 0630 if I'm lucky......hmmm, that gives me 4 hrs then. Great. And that's if I get to sleep right now.

This happens quite a bit, this sleepless phase. I've felt it coming for a few weeks. Usually starts with a couple of later nights due to work or just general 'going to bed later that I should'. Feeling wide awake at bedtime. Feeling energised, on an upswing in a creative way, be it with sewing or house decorating or tackling the garden. I ride this a bit, averaging 6 ish hours. Then bang...a night like last night. My brain would not switch off. It seems the more tired I am, the harder it is to get to sleep. And I'm a woman who is a very grumpy and intolerant moo on too little sleep (more so than usual, before all those that know me say it ;). And I stress about everything when I'm tired, including blogging! It's amazing how it alters my perspective.

I'm doing the usual, milky drinks, lavender oil, concentrating on the breath, no computer just before bed, etc, etc. My mind just laughs at such efforts and gets back to incessant churning. I know the way out is forcing myself to go to bed ridiculously early one night and breaking the chain, but I've got two nights on call to get through first.

So here I am.......zombie woman this morning. Huge shop to do, dog to walk and toddler group to attend. I may scratch the shop and the poor doggy and hope that the playgroup tires Maddie out enough for a sleep this afternoon - fingers crossed.
Going to try and spend minimal time on here and concentrate on not being evil to everyone, looking after myself, not feeling bad about not posting much (just pictures for a while I think - promise they'll be pretty, unlike the one above!) and getting the old sleep back on track.

I'll still be checking out my faves but may be a bit on the quiet side, hope you understand ....x

Comments

[Ali]

Know just how you feel. I've got a busy couple of weeks coming up and can feel the tension rising round my ears. Irritable beyond belief. And sleepless.

Hope your phase passes soon.

[annieb]

ooooh noooo - much sympathy on your plight. Hope you make it through your two nights and get back to a good rhythm soon...

[kat]

ugh! i have this problem as well - my head is too full, & just cannot relax. sometimes wearing my body out helps... other times it just results in me tired mentally & physically the next day ;-)
i hope you get some peaceful sleep soon.

[Paula]

Hi, I find the couple of things that help me is to get up and do something for half an hour or I put the radio on and listen to bbc 7 which has plays, dramas etc and this takes my mind off sleep, I then relax and drift off listening. Sometimes just lying there and thinking about how much sleep you could get is the worst thing to do as you slowly count down the hours until around half five or six you fall asleep only to have to get up again in an hour or so. Anyway, I really sympathise. Hope you overcome your insomnia.

[kathy]

oh you poor thing...when I am feeling not myself, from either lack of sleep or just life, i try Kalms (available in Tesco/Boots etc), beleive me they work. For your sleeplessness, they also do nighttime Kalms, please, just give them a try? they are herbal and worth a go?
On another note, I have been a terrible blogger lately, life has been very much different at the moment and I have certainly taken my eye off the important things at home and finding time to blog my own blog(?!) is at the bottom of my long list. I hope you feel better soon. Kathyx

[kristi]

not sleeping is NOT fun...know that i'll be thinking of you and hoping that you find rest soon...

[Jane]

Of course we understand. I seem to survive on little sleep - rarely asleep before 1.30am but can't get up in the morning..then if I sleep in past 8am it will be 3am before I get off that night.
I hope things improve for you soon. Just forget the unimportant things...xxx

[kosenrufu mama]

i hate when i can't sleep... it seems all so hard to do...i understand that yur feeling lke a zombie ;)

[tracy x]

i get the evils's if i am short on sleep too - the dogs know when to avoid me!
i then have the urge to eat masses of rubbish foods, so i go to bed the next night feeling bloated, guilty and sick and then cannot sleep because i have been a piggy!
life eh?
t x

[Elizabeth]

I know the problems with not sleeping too well (I had chronic insomnia a few years ago and ended up on mega-strength sleeping tablets from the doctor.) I find the herbal tablets Valerina Night-Time very effective. They are totally herbal and I get them from my local health-food shop. Nytol One-a-Night are good too but are more chemical.